Last year I stumbled upon a blogger who had chosen a word for the year. I had never heard of such a thing, but I liked it. So I joined the club and chose a word. I had no idea the impact of just 1 word. Last year, the word was restore. It became a comfortable friend, an old shoe. I slipped it on and in every situation it seemed to fit. So as the year was drawing to a close, I knew I needed to pick a new word, but I didn’t want to. I had become so loyal, I couldn’t imagine any other word being any better. Why can’t I just stay here?
And then I read these words by Ann Voskamp. Her words, were my thoughts and I realized I needed to move forward. 2012 was a great year, but God has more. I can’t stay in the same place, idle. Its a journey of faith, not a destination. I found I had friends in the blogger world, others who had a hard time choosing a word this year.
As we were taking down the Christmas decorations, my 3 year old had a hard time putting his little beloved snowman in the box. As we assured him it would still be there next year, he held on tight. We kept assuring him that it was ok to let it go, to surrender it to the big box of decorations. And in that moment, I saw myself. Like a little child, having a hard time surrendering and the word of the year was a sealed deal.
My word for the year is surrender. To let go, to release, to liberate. This word scares me. But on this journey towards home, I realize it takes courage and faith so I bend my knee to the King and surrender. Let it go. The control, the striving, the worry. I’m letting go of the string and allowing the winds of the Spirit to guide me. Releasing my little life to Him. We hold on so tight sometimes don’t we?He gets the keys. Jesus’ leadership is perfect. His yolk is easy and His burden is light.
Until there is total surrender, there is no vision. -Jennie Allen
Prayers like anything place us in the midst of stories. These stories have an author who writes characters, places and parts. He develops story lines that are quite epic…
“If anyone comes to me and does not hate his own father and mother and wife and children and brothers and sisters.. he cannot be my disciple. ” -Jesus, Luke 14 Jennie Allen summarizes this scripture like this:
Wake up! This pursuit of me, it may cost you everything you love here. It may cost even your life. And until this life gets small, really small, and I get big, really big, you won’t truly follow me. Because loving this life too much will affect your love for me. It will also affect what you are willing to do for me.
And so in 2013, I hope to surrender.